Oh my my my…

It’s been too long since I last posted…a couple of years actually. I’m so happy that I could retrieve my account and all my information. I’m so happy!

Honestly, the thought of creating a new account bored me to bits, this feels much better.

So what’s new…studied,my bride price was paid,got engaged,became an usher in church, got married,got employed,became self employed in my own business and now I’m studying again while working.

I really love my husband and I thank God for him every single day. Marriage is a step at a time,especially as a young couple we face a lot of challenges but our happy days are much much more!

So happy fam…too happy to be blogging again!

Current playlist…

Chris Brown-Back to love.



This what happens when I think about you…🎶
I feel it and I hope you feel it too,
been thinking that the feeling that was always creeping in me was sadness but now I’m sure that you’ve proven that fact true,
now with you I feel the opposite of that, I feel twists and turns in my heart and even while the sky is still blue, I just can’t explain what it is that you make me feel, 😳

Scared I am I do promise, how you control my system when we’re together gets me in a situation where I can confirm that people really are meant to exaggerate the emotions that others feel, I  promise to agree with anyone who confirms that our first encounter together was truly out of the ordinary, like a prostitute finally ending up with that guy that picked her up down the street, funny right? 😂😂😂

If I could, I’d spend all my time with you, it really turns me on when you smile and I get even crazier inside when you laugh, this situation for me really is quite tough, taken you are, but really letting go won’t be a price I’m willing to pay, only if you let go, only then will I,👫💔

Millions are expecting to hear that you bought me a private jet, they want to confirm their theory, that you bought me a mansion in Las Vegas, but really, how do I convince them that it’s just the total you that I have fun with, a complete day without you makes me feel like maybe you’re with another, or maybe, with her, who is the official one for you, what to do? what to do? I have no answers and it’s confusing, in this confusion I promise I’m lost,:|

Do you maybe know how crazy I get when you ignore me? I lose my cool and wonder if I should just give up, but then I remember, the sound of your voice when you say ‘halo’ on the phone, I get all sensual and I imagine us lying there breathless, still moist air around us now, breathless after all that humping, “babe did you cum? So did I”,🔥💏

If anyone would have told me that a day like this would come, where I would no longer be thinking about my ex but now you, my body organs will agree with me that I wouldn’t have pictured it, I’m a lustful animal and even as a woman, I crave for you maybe more than you do for me? If that means that you will be the reason that I will try and write a poem, besides those English literature lessons I had in school of course…hold me captive,✌✨

Current playlist… drifting -G eazy* Chris Brown * Tory Lanez 🎧





Got into bed at 3:15pm today. Too early you guess? I thought so too. I mean…I just got this terrible flu last evening, never really thought it’d be anything serious but oh well…:'(
My head, nasal area and basically my whole head hurts. It’s such a Saturday evening!  I mean…I can hear the music outside my bedroom so someone is definitely having fun somewhere out there.💃
I’m just at this point where life tires me. I might have just been looking okay this whole summer but I’m really bored to death.
I mean I’m this steak that’s
so grilled outside but raw in the middle. Too peaceful outside but too crooked inside.😷
I started writing this post yesterday but then dozed off in the middle of the night.
OK I’m done.😂😂😂
Haha and the picture there was a phootage by a new white South African friend of mine that I recently talk to much…Kevin Gerber. Hope he doesn’t get mad that I used this picture and his name here.
The only guy that has given negative comments on this blog. I respect him for that and I hope he isn’t being mean. Guess I’m raw in the middle.
Asante  Kevin Nakupenda (Thanks Kevin I love you.) 😍




1: The cute guy isn’t mine alone.
2: The ugly guy doesn’t  fascinate me at all.
3: The normal type of guy is hard to find.😱

1: The cute guy is very stingy and cares for his own needs…he is more fascinated in being happy than making me happy.
2: The ugly guy gives me most of what I want materially even if I do not ask for it. But I don’t want him, he is ugly, come on!
3: The normal type of guy gives  me material things in minimal amounts, he tries to balance love and money.😷

1: The cute guy is a bit choosy on who he loves or has relations with, but he has relations with a lot of all the types of girls.
2: The ugly guy is ready to have relations with any female that comes his way. I mean come on, does he really have that many choices?
3: The normal type of guy is just simply afraid to fall in love because of the fear of heartbreak. He was loyal in his first relationship but the opposite sex wasn’t.:(

…I like the cute guy but he has too many disadvantages.
…I love the amount of money the ugly guy gives me but not his face, so No!
…I should definitely end up with the normal guy but he thinks I’m hot so I will break his heart.





Remember that time when you wished you’d grow up fast…thought of how it would be cool to start work, get paid, move out of your parents house, pay bills and be responsible?:roll:

Well, me too, I remember. I remember how in high school, our head mistress always told us that the world out there is not that friendly, how we’d wish to come back to high school as soon as we left.👹

It’s okay, call me a living witness to that myth. It might be a fact😥.
So I’m only eighteen and I work, pay my bills and I’m in the capacity to buy a property. Started when I was just 17. Is it cool? A lot. Mom’s proud and I love that. But now I understand why older people usually say they are tired after work. I really do.🙀

I’m in the bus on my way home from work and boy I’m I tired!
Sometimes I really miss when I was in high school. Yeah, kill me! 👾

See how little kids have a good time? They know nothing about mingling with the opposite sex or getting heartbroken. How cool!✌

Whatever age you are in…exploit it to your maximum. There’s nothing that interesting in growing up. Let it be a natural process please.😾

I just wana go back to when I was young, if I knew then what I know now, would’ve changed a lot.💁

I mean, trust me…DON’T GROW UP! IT’S A TRAP!👎




Being pretty, that’s a choice you make…👑
Well I’ve had those friends that I call for a night out, you know…the “girl let’s go out and have a drink and stuff kinda thing”.
So I’d get all ready (sassy and classy) then we’d meet up as planned. 💄👢👚

I’m so having a good time but she all down looking at those other ‘prettier’ girls.
(You know how girls show out).
So after those few glances I give her…👀👀👀
“Eve I just don’t feel that good, I mean look at that girl, OK no…look at that hair…wait! Look at that other one…how about those shorts…:twisted:

We all got this kinda feeling that there’s someone prettier, cooler, taller, richer, smarter but hey! All could be either facts or situations.💁

Basically, ain’t nobody gon make me feel like I ain’t pretty.😂😂😂
To me that’s just a situation, I mean really, with just a certain amount of money…I can get that hair, those shoes, that bag, that face and definitely those pants.💃

At this point in my life I’ve passed through a couple of situations that might make me wana give up but you know what Estelle said, “We all make mistakes, you might fall on your face, but you gota get up.” 🙆

If there’s anything that I’ve come to accept is that whatever you desire and don’t have now but can have if something else was available, is called a situation.
If you wana feel prettier, act prettier!👸
If you wana feel richer, work on getting yourself richer!💰
Everything has a solution,but I’ll never accept feeling down, it just shouldn’t work that way!🙍

You are beautiful, no matter what they say, words shouldn’t bring you down💪💪💪.

Remember, there’s no such thing as a life that’s better than yours…there’s no such thing, there’s no such thing!😸😸😸




…beautiful like diamonds in the sky…🎶
…I’m not your mama…🎵
…If you’re sexy and you know it, put your hands up in the air…🎶

So for a second there I was in my world singing. I just wana wear some cool clothes and just have some cool long weird coloured  hair and make a video screaming in the streets like damn I’m the hottest one outchea” 😎😁😂😂

So you guys don’t know how cool I am like jeez haha. And I’m such a great simmer like call me fish😂😂😂! Sorry you guys I’m just crazy today and I speak Portuguese… Like yeah, I’m that hot😂😂😂. I also speak English and Swahili… Duh!

So this is probably one of the dumbest posts I’ve ever done but whatever man! I’ve been so down lately, I just wana have some fun.

I even wanted to delete some posts, imagine, I was that confused😂😂😂.

I’M BACK NOW…😤🤓😜😇😚




So I went through a break up last week on Wednesday night after almost 6 months of a long distance relationship. Actually today is Tuesday… so this is exactly a week after my last romance encounter with the dustbin of a guy. Then we broke up the next day (Wednesday as I had said before).😩😩😩

I may tolerate thoughts of being cheated on (that is if I don’t have proof of course). But not in a situation where I trick you into confessing. 😵😵😵

Yes I know…you didn’t mean to…
Yes I know…the fact that you cheated does not mean that you don’t love me…
Yes I know…you admit that I deserve better and you are a jerk then you start being sad…
Yes I know…you need me to forgive you because you are willing to tell me all I need to know and give me all your passwords to wherever…💆💆💆

But damn…you know you are 100℅ right… I DESERVE MORE THAN BETTER!💁💁💁

I cried… I mourned…but not any more…
You have hurt me in a couple of ways before but sometimes maybe I was being too hard on you because no matter what…you always came back begging.👿👿👿

Now a week down, it hurts less.
I remember the situation sometimes (like now) but it really only hurts a little (and that is only once in a while). I won’t lie that it can all go away in the next second…but now more than ever, I would like to believe that time heals all wounds and that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.🤗👻👻👻

This has only taught me how to be more calm and collected in all my future relationships (and I am sure that I will find more respect on the way).😍😍😍

But take note dustbin guy…



A friend once told me that I only blog when I am hurt. At that particular point I agreed with him(he is right by the way).
I do not know really why this is true but I guess really, every writer has an inspiration.
As for me…I just feel like writing when I am hurt and low because simply, that is when I usually feel alone and it is the time when I feel like I should share my ideas with more than just the people in my environment.
But anyway that is part of me and what more is there to wish for…than for all the hurt to go away?



I love the attention.
I love the kisses.
I love the ice cream.
I love to be touched in a certain way.
I love to be carried around.
I love to be protected.
I love swimming.
I love gifts.
I love going on dates.
I love the hugs.
I love Chris Brown’s music.
I love black, silver and grey.
I love HipHop.
I love being classy, neat and clean.
I love growing up.
I love the respect.